Live It, Breathe It

This is a Fire Door Never Leave Open

2010-02-19T15:20:00.001-05:00

Headlights race towards the corner of the dining room.Half illuminate a face before they disappear.You breathe in forty years of failing to describe a feeling.I breathe out smoke against the window, trace the letters in your name.Our letters sound the same;full of all our changing that isn't change at all.All straight lines circle sometime.You said "Somewhere there's a box full of replacement

2009-11-02T21:59:00.003-05:00

Both feet fell asleep so I stumbled as I made my way across the house.The concentration it took meant I didn't immediately notice the bruises on my hipsfrom my jeans digging in.

This is a list of things I like

2009-10-13T00:41:00.002-04:00

Harmonicas, maps, people who recognize the legitimacy of a saw as a musical instrument, coffee mixed with hot chocolate, clean sheets

2009-10-13T00:01:00.000-04:00

I haven't had much to say lately.

You take one step and miss the whole first rung.

2009-09-10T14:19:00.002-04:00

I want to be optimistic so badly.I want to believe that things will all work out.I want to worry less and embrace things more.I want to be hopeful for somebody else. For everybody else.

2009-09-02T02:32:00.001-04:00

When will I learn to drag myself out of bed when I think of something worth remembering?I haven't have a worthwhile thought in a long time.

2009-08-17T15:01:00.001-04:00

This is a year and a half old actually.

2009-08-03T18:22:00.001-04:00

On Saturday night I dreamt about my church days.Procession, crosses, white robes and lighting candles.

Sara Durland

2009-07-31T14:10:00.004-04:00

I wonder if I ever learned anything.

2009-07-29T03:21:00.009-04:00

Let's say you were twelve years old again, what would be a typical day for you?Wake up early, walk to the bus, get on the bus, go to school, go to my first class (science, with Mr. Mig) and fuck around with Clyde and Martin, go through the rest of my day with Clyde because we had every class but social studies together. Get in trouble for talking too much and making fun of Mr. Pond. Try to ditch

2009-07-19T03:53:00.003-04:00

Thought from last night:While I hate the prospect of poverty and not being insured, maybe this recession could be cool.I mean, culture's high points are always during economic depression, right?

2:30 AM Conversations with my brother

2009-07-16T02:32:00.003-04:00

Me: thx 4 keepin me in da loopIan: well you gotta loop the loopMe: and pullIan: not that thats even close to being relaventMe: now your shoes are looking coolIan: okay spongebob go homeMe: whateverMe: you're just as bad for knowing it was a spongebob referenceMe: i'mma go chill out in bikini bottomMe: AKA the showerIan: get me a crabby patty?Ian: AKAIan: drown yourselfMe: Sure thing.Ian:

2009-07-15T00:45:00.002-04:00

Sometimes (a lot of times) I just cannot bear to change the song that's playing, so I will listen to it for hours on end.

Broken Heroes on a Last Chance Power Drive

2009-07-04T15:06:00.002-04:00

In the day we sweat it out in the streets of a runaway american dreamAt night we ride through mansions of glory in suicide machinesSprung from cages out on highway 9,Chrome wheeled, fuel injected and steppin out over the lineBaby this town rips the bones from your backIts a death trap, its a suicide rapWe gotta get out while were young`cause tramps like us, baby we were born to run.Mmmmm, am I

2009-07-01T16:59:00.002-04:00

Does anyone completely understand you?Probably not. I'm not saying that I'm so out there that I'm incomprehensible, but you really need to know my family to know where I come from.I am an amalgamation of my father, his five brothers, his parents and his aunt and her husband.Yes, I am slightly elitist. Yes, I am sarcastic about everything. Yes, I do think everyone else is dumb. Yes, I will show

If I Could Wake Up Anywhere.

2009-06-29T04:49:00.003-04:00

This accompanies thinking a little bit too much.

I don't know you well, I know just enough to tell you that.

2009-06-23T18:56:00.004-04:00

I dream about playing harmonicas and trying to escape. Unsuccessful at both attempts.

I Found Paint

2009-06-08T10:10:00.000-04:00

It matches the colour of my titles links exactly.Room matches blog.I might be really cool. I'm probably really lame.This wasn't even planned.

I hate watching other people do things.

2009-06-07T20:38:00.002-04:00

This is getting uncomfortable again.This stagnant feeling. I need a change again. I'm getting bored again.I'm too close to not being uninspired. If you don't know what I'm talking about then you've either never done anything or you've never been in a creative rut.I'm sick of waiting around and I'm sick of not doing anything.

Bank of Boston Beauty Queen

2009-06-05T12:07:00.002-04:00

ive tried dolls that were guaranteed sixteen or under none were very excitingsorta like a laugh track or whacking off they’ll get you off but it’s just not the real thingits been decades since my pit daysbut i havent shaken it - i sit there like an idiotstill caught up in the old punk protocoland dreaming that the teenagers will think that i’m a radicaland i still wait for the bus to come where

I don't need much.

2009-05-23T02:12:00.002-04:00

I am really thankful for my sister being there to be my best friend when I need her to be.

2009-05-15T13:32:00.001-04:00

I fully endorse taking showers with the music as loud as it can be in the other room.

Have I mentioned this?

2009-05-12T14:40:00.000-04:00

I want to know everything about everybody.

I Still Feel Like This

2009-04-22T21:45:00.002-04:00

More things that I wrote a year ago.Sorry about this.---I wish I could get into somebody else's head. I wonder if everyone wonders what other people wonder about. It's probably a natural thought process. Exploring the unknown, right? That's what it's all about in the first place. I want to keep a journal of other peoples' thoughts. I want to piece together everyone else's lives. I want stories

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2009-04-15T19:33:00.000-04:00

I want my chest pressed to your chest.

I'm 16 Years Old Again, Awkward and Shy and Unsure of Myself.

2009-04-07T00:17:00.005-04:00

"I'm going to give you a new word, write about it." Perfect. I come from Sullivan County, New York. Yup, where Woodstock was held in '69. Yup, a tourist trap near the Catskill mountains. I was a pretty happy kid growing up and turned into a pretty cynical, introverted person, but I can't give up on studying people. Of all of the interesting things in the world, right? I think people generally

Some things truly do run in the family.

2009-04-06T01:58:00.002-04:00

"I'm tireddddddddddd.""So go to bed?""I don't want toooooooooo.""Make coffee?""Ohhhh. That's a good idea! ... my knees hurt.""Because you're so tall.""Yeah... coffee... coffee fixes everything!"Like the stutter I get when my anxiety is bad.Like the sense of humour I have.Like my sleeping patterns.Like the fondness for photographs and for art, in general.Like coffee at late hours of the night.

2009-03-24T16:40:00.001-04:00

I don't remember much. I just remember thinking that maybe this is who I want to be.

Fuckkkk

2009-02-20T00:19:00.004-05:00

clearly this is a product of cross breeding. it's like computer aidsdesktops (< / 3) laptopswe need to put a ban on this [- B M Latimer]My computer had a shitty week.

2009-02-19T23:01:00.001-05:00

A very interesting question was posed to me tonight.Something has to come from it.

2009-02-02T22:00:00.001-05:00

How do you account for missing an 8am class due to anxiety attacks ahead of time?

I Hope To See My Sister Married Off to A Smart Man.

2009-01-28T16:16:00.002-05:00

xxelmo0265xx: heyy were r u ??MissyAnn95x: Rooomage.xxelmo0265xx: oh doi wat lookin at da magizine???MissyAnn95x: ....way to not speak Englishxxelmo0265xx: oh **doin **datMissyAnn95x: You're still not peaking English.And no i'm not looking at the magazine I already did.I'm on the computer (obviously)xxelmo0265xx: oh shut upxxelmo0265xx: peaking isnt english eitherMissyAnn95x: Yeah but that was

"Research" Paper

2009-01-23T14:06:00.003-05:00

Would you stay in the room if a large spider was in it?:yeah sooooooonnid have a mad nice intellectual conversation with it share stories and drink some tea with that niggahFor my Intro to Psych class, I'm writing a term paper about the relationships between my siblings and me, and how our parents have affected us, or not affected us, in a couple of good cases.It's supposed to be about 10 pages

Tips For Dating Girls

2009-01-17T22:00:00.004-05:00

1. Shut. Up. Shut up shut up shut up. You are not nearly as charming or as clever as you think you are.

I Didn't Really Like The Great Gatsby

2009-01-14T01:44:00.001-05:00

But I think Daisy is a fantastic name.

PSA

2009-01-11T01:06:00.000-05:00

Psychology homework is exorbitantly frustrating when slightly inebriated.

Things I'm Gonna Do

2008-12-30T20:24:00.002-05:00

I keep looking at this and remembering that it exists, I just don't have any meaningful thoughts; when I do, they've been pushed back to my head. Just me making excuses for myself.I don't make New Years Resolutions. Thanks, Dad.I don't like breaking promises and that's what a resolution is. If I make a promise to myself I would really rather not break it. Understandable. I think it is, at any

2008-09-04T21:53:00.001-04:00

The hurricane that blew last night worked wondersThe house is torn, the line is cut; now we see with real eyesAnd talk with words that matter and I am not your shelterAs the wind ripped everything I finally felt my lungs expandingWalk away from the before and into nowWalk away out of the old skin when the old skin's drowned beneath the cloudsWalk away when all the world has blown apartWalk away

Autumn Said

2008-08-22T02:18:00.005-04:00

"Scarling is very depressing to pack to.""I've decided that even though we have 347580987349759 boxes of shit, I'm going to pack some unnecessary trinkets too.""It's the simple things in life."We're always hoping for the best.She's not wrong, not nearly. But I guess I'll be damned if it doesn't feel right.I'm trying to figure out what feels different this time.

We Didn't Start The Fire

2008-07-23T03:13:00.001-04:00

Moral of story: No, you really DON'T need that cigarette at four am. Especially when you're hooked up to an oxygen tank.

A Tribute to My Sister

2008-07-15T16:18:00.009-04:00

"You a few years ago?" "Essentially" "You guys look exactly alike." "I keep hearing that, lately." "You sound very similar." "If I'm not looking at you guys, I can't tell which one is talking" "Which one are you, Melissa or Becky?"I decided to take a few moments today to

I've Got To Wonder

2008-07-09T20:51:00.004-04:00

Why do little girls cause so many problems amongst themselves?Maybe this is feminist backing or the fact that I was a little girl who was friends with little boys, but shouldn't you like your friends, and not want to start arguments for fun? If you're mad at your friend, tell them and then get a free punch if the situation warrants it, sleep it off, and be happy in the morning. That or just get

Happy Birthday?

2008-07-01T11:40:00.001-04:00

"This Fourth of July, ABC Family salutes America with a Harry Potter weekend!"Uhm what?

It's Not So Charming When You Live Here

2008-06-26T14:58:00.004-04:00

I still hate yuppie tourists and people who take pictures of cows when they come "upstate." I hate every single person who belongs to a Sullivan County or a Hudson Valley group on Flickr who lives in New York City, Long Island and Westchester county and posts their fantastic finds and accounts of their upstate weekend. Yeah, how was roughin' it up in the country? Some some wildlife, livestock and

It's Alright

2008-06-24T15:39:00.004-04:00

Little darling -It's been a long cold lonely winterLittle darling -It seems like years since it's been hereLittle darling -The smiles returning to the facesLittle darling -It seems like years since it's been hereLittle darling -I see the ice is slowly meltingLittle darling -It seems like years since it's been clear

2008-06-23T18:35:00.002-04:00

I still love the smell.

2008-06-20T19:25:00.002-04:00

I can recognize foreshadowing when I see it.

Just a note -

2008-06-18T17:00:00.003-04:00

I am so sick of all this rain. The power has gone out here three times in the past two weeks, and it sucks pretty badly. I'm worldly and I know that the Midwest is getting real really badly, but I am still going to whine for a moment. If these storms keep up, there are not going to be any more trees in the Hudson Valley by the end of summer.

Signs of Summer

2008-06-08T21:27:00.001-04:00

My sister, Memorial Day.

On: Small Learning Communities

2008-06-03T23:42:00.001-04:00

J: it's because they're trying to raise all their test scores so they don't get ridiculed for being dumb shits and thus introduce all this bogus teaching shit that hasn't been proven or works but only in schools with completely different demographicsR: I just don't get how any of it is supposed to raise test scoresJ: It doesn't which is why it isn't working. haha.R: but what's the theory behind

This

2008-06-01T21:19:00.000-04:00

Something new? Something old?Maybe just something different.Another outlet. Something that I don't need, really.